As I sit here in my living room ( yes, I decided to be fancy and say living room instead of sitting room) and I am contemplating life a new. And for the first time, my vision is twenty twenty. Today, I am looking at life with my eyes peeled open. How, You ask? Well, something glorious happened to me some time back. I invited the Holy Spirit into my life. I have asked Him that I want to hear His voice. It hasn’t happened…YET. But i know, just as i know that the sky is blue and water is liquid that He is faithful. And I am seeking Him with all of my being. His word says that if we do so, He will draw near to us.

I have a secret. There is a point, (am not sure how I reached it but I have been able to) where, when I ask or I am worried about something, a solution is granted or what I ask for is given. I strongly believe it’s because i ask for it in the spirit dimension (I only know about it because I have been hearing a lot of preaching about the spirit dimension). I seem to access it unconsciously. Somehow. God is spirit. He lives inside of me. I think that is the part when I access, and ask for something, it is given. The Holy Spirit has shown it to me. He has shown me how God is my provider. I learnt that is why He is called Yahweh. Jehovah Jireh. The Lord who provides. I learnt about this yesterday.

Today I learnt something new. The Lord is my shepherd.He leads me. He knows where I am going even if I don’t. He keeps and protects me. I have no reason to worry about my future because He knows it already. He knows the steps I need to take to get there. And to get there on time! I have chosen to follow God.  To put all my trust in Him because He knows not just my tomorrow but my eternity. Its not just spiritual its actually logical. Think about this, when you don’t know the location of your destination, and you get into an Uber and the driver tells you they know the place you want to go. Don’t you sit down easy and relax and don’t have any anxiety because you know the Uber driver will get you there? Well, my revelation today is that God is our driver. The controller of our lives. He knows where you need to go. He knows all the destinations but most importantly He knows YOUR destination. The destination that will give you happiness, Joy, Peace that even the rich cannot buy and prosperity. Today, I am going to sit back and enjoy the ride because my driver is the Most High.There is no want that I could think of that He hasn’t thought of first. At times Hes the one who has given me that idea. The mistake I do is when I try to do it by myself. Boy do I botch it! Its like when you tell your Uber driver to use a certain route and you insist on it thinking you know better because you have consulted google maps. Well, it most always ends up costing you. You end up paying a higher amount coz maybe that’s the long route, or you end up on traffic and costs you waiting charges and you may even reach your destination late.

Guess what, there are no google maps to life. So how do I think I know more than the driver?? How can I possibly think my way is better? I surprise myself at times. Because I make zero sense thinking I know better. God has gone an extra step to give us a helper, comforter and director in our lives. The Holy Spirit who is God. Yet I keep on suppressing Him at times by insisting on doing what I want by my own strength. How can I know what I want? My way leads to heart break and sadness and misery. My way is dark and soulless. My way is empty. O n the other hand, His way is full of light and life. Its full of joy and abundance. It’s peace and friendships and laughter. How could I not choose that path? How is it logical not to. I put my faith in He who knows it all. He who knew me before I was even born. He input a purpose in me and He knows what it is. I am not sure what my purpose is but I have been given guidelines. I have been given the Bible . It is the manual to living a happy fulfilled life. And why shouldn’t I follow it? It’s the right way. The Only Way. I am not going to waste time thinking and wondering and being anxious when i have someone who is not only willing but would love to assist me in living a full and happy life. I have been given the secret to a happy life and it is to have God as the cornerstone. My North pole. The Bible, gives me the blueprint to having a prosperous life. Its no longer my job to worry about what is going to happen tomorrow. He who created me will order my steps and I will walk in His will. I remove all that worry and put it on the shoulders that are big enough to carry. God’s shoulders.

Its none of my business how I am going to get provision, because He is my provider. I don’t have to worry if I am going to be safe because He is my safety or how I am going to be healed, because He is my healer. Even the very breath I take, is His. He is going to figure out each and every aspect of my life, Why? Because i am His Child. If it is not for me, then He will not provide it. But on the other hand, if it is for me, then there is no force under, over or in between the universe that can stop me from receiving it. There is no door that when He opens anyone can shut down. And there is no door that when He shuts, anyone can open. And this is where I tremble at the power of my King. His word is final. It is the Amen. It is the so be it. And no one, absolutely no one can oppose it. That the supreme God I serve. Just like David in the Bible, his 7 older brother went before him to be anointed as the next king of Israel and none was picked. His own father, who had dismissed him had to call him in last, and David was anointed by Samuel to be the second King of Israel. In that very same way, God is going to hold out what is for me up until I get it. His nature does not change. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. And because I am favored by God through my Lord Jesus who died for my sins, His will is my portion. I worship the Father Lord, Jesus and the Holy Spirit whom together they are 1 God.

My friends, let us hold fast to the promises of Christ Jesus. Let us believe in the truth that is in His word because He is faithful to keep it. And just like the psalmist, let us declare that the Lord, He who knows our destination be our Shepherd. And as we wait, May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with us now and forever, Amen.

Changes. No one likes change. That is the fundamental truth about human beings. And yet change is inevitable. So why can’t we accept change readily? Is it because of comfort? Is it because we are afraid of the unknown? Well, changes come in many forms. Positive and the not so positive changes. For example, positive change could be promotion at work, marriage, having children (because the life dynamics involved change), graduating, getting that first job. Then, we have the not so positive changes. Such as demotion at work, getting fired from work, divorce, loosing a child and even moving regions/ places.

So how do you deal with change? I’d love to know because i am not a fan. Are you so easy going that you just take it in stride or is it because you are so used to change that you have become accustomed to it? Well, whatever your secret, please share with me. I do not readily accept change. Especially if i had not instigated it. I become anxious and i almost always try to resist. I think i am one of those people whom God has to make my situation so uncomfortable, so unbearable til i look outside and think that anywhere is better than where i am at. I learnt my lesson the hard way. So nowadays, i am very cautious about change. I try…(yes, try-baby steps my friends)-to look at it in a 360 degree fashion. But mostly i try to see if it is God wanting me to make a move, a change from the state i am in.

I believe that the most difficult change is that of oneself. The change from inside is very difficult and you have to look at yourself critically and make the decision. What i wonder is, is it because we like to hide behind something. Think about it, every time something happens, where is your hiding place? Is it blame? Every single time something happens, especially something negative, you are quick to throw blame in someone else’s direction. Its never your fault. Do statements like these run in your day today vocabulary? “It’s my boss, it’s my wife, it’s my husband, it’s my co-worker, even at times it’s my children”Well, if my wife hadn’t done this or done this, i wouldn’t have looked for a mistress,…if my husband was this then i wouldn’t or would be this. And it goes on and on and on.Blame. That’s your first line of defense.

For others they run towards unexpectation. They never expect anything. And the reason they give…if you don’t expect, then they will not be disappointed when it doesn’t happen. As a Christian, i find this a very sad way of life. We are saved by grace. We receive grace through faith. Receive. Not Get. Because to get something means you have to work for it. You put effort and are rewarded with a result. But none of us can work for our salvation. You just sit back, relax and deeply and honestly, tell God that you want Him in your life. Confess by your words that you repent of your sins and that Jesus is the son of God and He died on the cross for your sins and transgressions . Just like that, you become an heir to the Kingdom. How amazing is that!! Receive. Receive the Holy Spirit. Everything about God is about receiving. You don’t have to do anything to make yourself worthy. Because even before you made up your mind to follow Him, He already loved you. Jehovah is Lord indeed. So yes…what was i saying, living a life of low or no expectation just to avoid being disappointed. I truly believe this is a lie the enemy has perpetuated to the point of some people live by this belief. Jesus Christ died so that we can live in ABUNDANCE! Put your faith in this promise. And you will never live a life of low expectations. You will pray, ask and EXPECT to receive. In other words, have Faith. Not because you deserve it but because of who He is. He is faithful in His promises. My friends, if there is something i do not want to happen is when my time is over here on earth, is for God to show me the picture of how grand my life here on earth would have been if only i had dared to believe. Dared to have faith. Dared to expect. Because, there is nothing that you can think of that your Father in heaven has not thought for you already. As His child, He wants to give it all to you. He is just waiting, at the edge of His throne for you to ask, have faith and expect. Nothing is too big or too small for Him who created you. No aspect of your life is insignificant. And the best part, He wants to be involved.

So if you want to have a safe and secure hiding place,run towards Jesus. When the troubles of this earth make you weary, run to Him. Remember, He never promised that it would be easy. He promised that His grace will be sufficient and will carry us through. I literally picture in my mind resting my head on the lap of Jesus while sitting at His feet. When i am so tired and i need to be recharged, i go before Him and just lay my head in His lap and tell Him to take over. The picture is normally so vivid in my mind. I can’t honestly tell you that i see a difference immediately. But somehow, i don’t know how, but slowly and surely, the situation stops looking as dire as it had before I went to Him. I don’t know how He does it, and I am content not knowing, but i know i always receive His comfort.

As we set ourselves to follow Him, let us know that we have a hiding place. No matter the change that goes on in our lives. He is right there with us. And He promises to be there in our situations. To help us through it all. To be our Rock. Be of cheer my friend, there’s not just light at the end of the tunnel, the light is within each and every one of us.

And May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with us now and forever more, Amen.

My Christian journey has not been smooth sailing. Not at all. There was a time that i was truly and utterly reliant on God. And He gave me a miracle. I completely and totally relied on Him for a job. I even stopped doing applications. Such was my faith. I got a random phone call at midday and voila, I was offered a job. I have never been so amazed in my life. I was awed and truly I serve a God who answers prayers.

But guess what my brethren, the enemy doesn’t sleep. The enemy doesn’t sleep when God calls back His own. He schemes on how he can get you back. It bothers him to know you will know eternal life and joy. So, slowly by slowly my faith went down. Going to church slowly became an option then a chore. I stopped going to church. And my downward spiral began. Looking back, I can’t believe it was me doing all that. All those things that I once thought I would never do,…I did. The more I did, the more ashamed and guilty I felt, the more rebellious I became.I thought i was acting wise but i have never been so wrong in my life. Let me tell you my friends, their is nothing as unattractive as a woman who doesn’t know who she is in the Lord. When you don’t stand for something, you will fall for anything. That was a true picture of my life. Anything went. The worst is, when you just consider your selfish needs, you hurt so many people. Even those you don’t see. You disrupt so may lives because of your selfish desires.

I thank the Lord everyday because He changed me. He reached down into the pit I had dug myself into and brought me out into the light. He saved me. Surely He is my redeemer. We serve a good good God. He is the only one capable of changing lives. I am amazed when i see women choosing their partners and thinking you can change him. Let me tell you my sisters. Changing a man is an uphill task you are not equipped to do. Your shoulders are not big enough or strong enough to handle it. Only God has the power and strength to change a man. Secondly, I think its very unfair to the man if all you see is how he needs to change. God created him as he is. That man is for the pleasure of God and He wants and completely loves him as he is. If you look at that man and all you want to do is change him, then he is not for you. Let him be. Someone else will look at him and appreciate him just as he is. Don’t make both you and him miserable by trying to change him. To, make matters worse, some women think that if they get pregnant for him, then he will have an incentive to change. You could never be more wrong. Don’t destroy your life, his life and that of the baby by trying to manipulate him into being what you want. Trust me, when he finds the one he’s been waiting/looking for, he will change for her if he needs to.

I admit. Loneliness is not an easy thing. Social media has made it even worse. You see how happy other couples are. And for some reason, it always seems as if ,what you want keeps happening to everyone around you but you. For instance, when you want a boyfriend, every single person around you seems to be in a relationship. When you want to be married, the wedding invites can’t seem to stop flowing and you are always giving out your measurements to different tailors for your bridesmaid dress. When you want a baby, the cutesy pics of your friend’s babies are the 1st thing you see when face book is sending you notifications. Believe me, the pressure is real. It gets to you. And when you are not careful, when you are not looking, that is when the enemy strikes. And he goes for the kill. Suddenly this man who is totally wrong for you, maybe married, or violent or is from jail… (okay, I am not being prejudiced but if you find your self dating an ex-con….i advise you to tread carefully)… is giving you all the attention that you have been craving. Then the compromise starts. It starts with the small things…then transition to bigger and bigger things. And finally when you look at yourself, you can’t recognize the person looking back at you.

So, what should you be doing in the mean time? I will answer you as honestly as i possible can. Immerse yourself in all things Christ. Let the love of God fill you up. Seek Him who created you. Involve yourself in selfless acts. Visit the children’s home, Visit the sick in hospital, Go hiking for a charity cause. Take that study course you have been wanting to do, Climb that proverbial corporate ladder, be the best in your team. Role up your sleeves and work as you wait confidently in God. I will not deny, your bed will still be cold when you get back but you will be content you have touched a life, that you have progressed. Do this consistently and finally, finally the loneliness starts to ease up. Listen to the word of God, go to church, volunteer for a service. And last but not least pray. I am still praying. God knows all the desires of your heart. He put them there. There’s nothing absolutely wrong with wanting a life partner. God loves us in relationships. He wants us happy. He will not dangle relationship on your face like a carrot and not give it to you. That is not His style. He will give you this and so much more but only if you put Him first. We serve a jealous God. He will not tolerate you putting someone else before Him. And I am afraid that is what we do. You want a relationship so bad you go to extremities just to get him/her. Remember Kind David my friends. He committed murder just to get his selfish desires met. God denied him his heart’s true desire-to build God His temple. Instead, that privilege was given to his son King Solomon. So ask yourself this, is that man/woman you are clinging on worth it? Because I tell you my friends, relationships are never meant to be that hard. You don’t need to be conniving and manipulative and shower money and play games just to get that man/ woman.

Immerse yourself in God. In Him comes true love and peace. When you know who you are in Christ, then you look at everything with a different perspective. Suddenly instead of feeling envious of friends, you are genuinely happy for them. Because you understand and know that the God you serve has blessed them. And you can confidently say…This is not my portion…YET. Because you have the faith that your Father in heaven is already moving things. He is already setting you up for success. He is already moving pieces so that you can meet that your soulmate. Not because you deserve it but because of who He is. He says ask and it shall be given to you. He will give you all that and more. But you have to stand strong in His promises. Remember my friends, God is never late neither is He too early. He is always on time. Be patient and wait. Your turn is coming. Stand strong and watch Him do what no one else under the universe can do.

Don’t put your limitations on Him. He is the creator. Everything under the universe bows before Him. Nothing escapes His notice. But the best thing of all, He deeply cares for you. He utterly loves you such that He does not want to be separated from you. He wants you to enjoy all that He can give you. So, stand with me my brothers and sisters. Stand firm with me. Let us all know that He is God and He is the God of impossibilities. So what if all your mates are married, so what if all your friends are having children, so what if you feel that all your friends are progressing in their careers. Remember He is the one who gave them all that they have and He has not forgotten you. The Bible says your name is engraved in His palm. He chose you. Just as you are. Take that step and start knowing Him. And He will bless you with your heart’s true desires. He waiting for you. He wants to bless you beyond your imagination.

And as we wait for Him, let us enjoy the season we are in. Because something is about to happen. I can feel it.

May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with us now and forever Amen.

Today i have a question for you….Are you doing what you are meant to do?

I believe people have so much to offer. God has input in every one of us something that is unique to you. Some thing that if you pursue it, will lead to be a solution to some else’s problem. You see even before you were a thought in your mother’s womb, God knew you. And He input in you a purpose.

Let’s put a pin on that word for a minute. Purpose. What is purpose? How do you know if you are living in purpose. Pastors and preachers love stating this word. But what does it really mean?? How do you know if you are living in purpose? Everybody, be it young or old, rich or poor is looking, searching for that elusive inner peace that the great Yogis and the Mahatma Gandhi’s and Mother Teresa’s of this world are talking about. How do you achieve it? This is where I can stand tall ( yes, I am allowed to say that even at my 4 feet 11 inches height) and proclaim to the world about My faith. You see, I am a Christian. I absolutely and utterly love Jesus and because of that, by The grace, i am trying to live a righteous life. When you receive Jesus Christ into your life, you invite the Holy Spirit into your life. And this is where it gets more interesting…The Holy Spirit can and will reveal what your purpose is. You see, purpose is not just for yourself. Purpose is not the job you have or the work you do. Yes, it can encompass that but purpose is much much greater. Purpose has the ability of not just influencing you and your life but more people and the generation to come.

I’ll give you an example. Take a look at Hannah in the Bible. She strongly desired to have a child. She prayed so hard til the priest at that time Eli thought she was drunk. But she was presenting her problems and desires to God. I can only imagine her life. Here she was, unable to have children with her husband while the co-wife is having them by the boatloads. So as per science today, we know the husband is OK. She was the one with the problem. Gosh, i can only imagine how tough life was for her. How prideful the co-wife must have been. The snide comments and just plain meanness towards her. But she held firm in her God. And when finally God gave her her heart’s desire, she did not just give birth to 1 child. She had another and another and another. When God decides to open up the floodgates of heaven to pour blessings on you, nothing can stop it. The bible says He is able to sow Himself strong in your weakness. Hallelujah! I serve a mighty God. Anyway I am digressing. So where was i..oh yes, Hannah and her son Samuel.

Samuel served Israel in 3 different capacities. He was a judge…in the times before Kings, wise judges would be consulted to solve conflicts within the people, offer council and all that. So he was a judge, a priest and also a prophet. He was the one who transitioned Israel to a monarchy state. He anointed the 1st king of Israel, King Saul and also anointed King David. King David through his lineage, the man after God’s heart ,we got Jesus the Messiah. And through Jesus Christ we are all saved.

Now that is purpose. You are not just created for yourself. All those selfish demands you make to your creator, to the people around you just show that you are not living in purpose. I truly believe to live in purpose means living to serve. In what capacity? Well, the Holy Spirit has to reveal that to you. And if you ask me, How?, I will answer you. Seek Him with all your heart. Sit down by yourself in a quiet environment and dive dip down yourself and ask. I promise you He will answer. He answered me…that’s how i started this blog. I am not sure who this blog will touch but i am living in my purpose. Living in purpose has nothing to do with money. Heck, i had to find a free website to be able to write. I write down my inner thoughts, My christian journey and faith. My perspective as a 21st century girl and how I think God helps us. The beauty is that no matter what you go through, you can always infer from the Bible. Yes, the challenges may be different from those of Biblical times, but i assure you the Holy Spirit is up to date. I can only speak of how i knew it was the Holy Spirit. He spoke to me with my own voice. I heard myself speak. So how do you differentiate between your own words and that of the Holy Spirit? Well, the words of the Holy Spirit will always coincide with what the Bible says. If it does not, then my dear you are probably communicating with other kinds of spirits. the bad kinds.
The words of The Holy Spirit will always be true. You will be courageous to say it in front of a crowd. He tells you to do something and provides a means to do it. Because He is your provider. God cannot help but provide for you. He wants to provide for you even before you ask. But that’s a key word. You need to ask. He says my people will seek me and they will find me. Whatever it is, I assure you God has a solution Nothing is a surprise to Him.

So my dears, find your purpose. It doesn’t have to be glamorous but i know you will have that inner peace. Not only that but you will be able to accomplish so much more than what you are currently doing. Have a conversation with your creator and He will lead you to your true authentic self. I will stop for now. Otherwise i can write and write all day long…and my lunch break is over and have to get back to work.

Until next time, be blessed. And may the grace of the Lord Jesus, the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you now and forever Amen.